Here I am, Lord, is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night,
I will go, Lord, if you lead me,
I will hold your people in my heart.
I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry,
All who dwel in dark and sin,
my hand will save,
I who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright,
who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?
I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people's pain.
I have wept for love of them,
they turn away,
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my word to them,
Whom shall I send?
I, the Lord of wind and flame.
I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them,
my hand will save.
Finest bread I will provide
Till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life them.
Whom shall I send?
Taking a break from work
What a job!
St Pauls offered me many opportunities to learn and
educate myself both spiritually and academically. It was only in the monastery that I learned the English language as well
as many other values in human life including Spirituality of Don Alberione, the Founder of the Pauline Family.
30, 1979 I was initiated after four years of rigorous training into the Religious Life. After that, I was sent to Allahabad
a small city on the banks of rivers the Ganges and the Yamuna in North India. Focusing on the gospel of Jesus, I was given
additional training to understand and live the word of God in my daily life.
In 1982 transferred back to Bangalore
I was asked to look after the young candidates to Religious Life who had just joined. I became one among them in praying,
playing, working and resting; giving them inspiration and guidance to live and love Jesus all through the day in all that
we had done. Being with the young,
I learned to be humble of my seniority. They always tried to find in me something of
the Lord Jesus, who chose them to be His own, that they could imitate and follow.
In 1984 back to Bangalore, I was
given a short course on Biblical studies in the St. Peter's Seminary, Bangalore. After the completion of the course and spiritual
studies, I was promoted to be a permanent member of the monastery by committing myself to the Lord for all my life. After
a couple of years I was transferred back to Mumbai to do my apostolic activity in the Examiner Bookshop of the monastery.
Later I was appointed as the diffusion in-charge of the Better Yourself Books and St Paul Publications. During that time computers
were widely introduced in India and I could make use of them to computerize our
Though I wanted to specialize in computer applications
by doing a course on computers, the Spirit of God inspired me and lead me to the Vidya Deep, a Theological Institute affiliated
Dharmaram College in Bangalore. There I was putting my heart and mind to study theology and Religious sciences. In
fact I enjoyed being a student at the age of 38 for the three year intensive course. It contributed many things and changed
my life totally.
I came to know that God dwells in every human being; to love God is to love humans here on earth.
It is only in loving human beings that I can love God. My prayers life is nothing else but a conversation with God and listening
to Him attentively. It is an examination of my conscience in relation to my fellow beings here on earth. As Jesus came on
earth not for himself but for others, I too must be a person for others that the other may find in me a drop of honey and
I in them. I decided to live and die for others as Jesus himself has showed by his own life by
dying on the cross.
my studies I was transferred to Jorhat in the north East part of India where I met many people all over Assam for a whole
year moving around with Mobile Unit. Though the place was filled with a terrorists group named ULFA who used to kill many
people and loot their valuables, I liked to be there experiencing a new way of life in the community of three members.
1987 I was transferred to Allahabad where I am today. In 1998 I joined for a diploma course on computers and obtained an Advanced
Diploma in Computer Applications. Allahabad is a holy
city on the banks of the rivers Ganges and Yamuna. These rivers are
very holy for Hindus. In this city most of the people are Hindus and Christians are hardly 0.1%. It is really worth living
in this part of India radiating the light of Christ to the millions who do not know Him.